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wow, the brick wall im building is working really good... today one of my friends was having problems and normally i woulda cried and stuff but i was just thinking oh well, i'll believe it when it happens, and it wont bother me until then, and someone else was crying and i guess my wall works good bcuz i wasnt affected... hardly at all... and idk..
im just not letting the bad stuff affect me anymore.. this wall is keeping it all out, but i can have happy feelings still, those arent blocked out, at least not yet.... they will eveuntally. today, when the thing was happening afterschool i kept looking away and what do i see? MIKEY WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND! god i do like him alot! theyre always attatched! argh!
anyways, today was a blah day.... i was late to 1st per bcuz i was in the wellness center, 2nd i got in truble for talking and the teacher movd me to the opp. side of the room, away from everyone, 3rd, took a test... did.... ok i guess... 4th, THOSE PARTY POPPERS ROCK! haha and we walked a perimeter and the stupid fat bitch teacher left before we finished! then again, me, marie, courtney (s.) kevin, and paul were dead last... o well, we had poppers, it was fun... lunch, very long group, it was cool tho, MISSED YA MARIE AND KERI! and 5th we got an assignment but we were late and were just gonna do it 2moro, 6th, found out i really got a 16/30 on the geometry test. god that sucks ass... o well... then after school all the stuff happened...
o yeah, cassie wrote a note to jessica telling her sum stuff she needed to kno and jessica got all mad and isnt talking to cassie anymore and shes prolly mad at me and katie and karen too... o well.... so yeah, more drama...
btw, today i was wearing 2 different shoes. one was mine and the other one was amandas, she got new blue/dark blu checkerd slipons and i really liked them so i took one... and yeah, i lookd weird, what the hell who cares everyone already considers me a freak, why not fuel the fire? its way better to be a freak then it is to be normal!
everyone thinks i smoke! my friend just told me that her mom asked her if i smoke and she said why and she said bcuz i look like the kind of person that would smoke. god i might as well smoke bcuz almost the whole world thinks i do already! grrr! do i really look like that?
blah! im going to the batting cages before my game so i will talk to you later, buh-byez everyone, luvya!
b. (i like how that looks. b. haha. cool. now im b. when i sign my xanga. its from lit, there i'm sarah b.)
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